The Monster Inside..

By: Sunflower🌻

Sitting in car for 10 minutes before going into the store, restaurant, work etc. Doing something the same way everyday. 

Thinking about all the bad things before doing something. 

Having to take breaths, and counting to three, so you take the next step, or doing it multiple times to get though the day. 

Being scared to talk to people or to walk into a room. 
These are just some of the things that I’ve been dealing with since i got into my twenty I’m writing this sitting in my car outside of a bar, worrying about all the stuff, that could go wrong. There too many people, what if someone tries to talk to me, worse what if a guy talks to me, some people would think that great but not me as much as I want a guy to talk to me. I don’t know how to talk back. So there I go turning something good into something bad. 
I’m twenty two now, and ever since I’ve turned twenty. I’ve been having the worse anxiety of my life. Yes, I was very shy in school. But I’ve never stressed about so much as I do now. Most of the stuff I stress about is minor. Things that you shouldn’t worry about. And I don’t know how to deal with it anymore, I feel like its holding me back from so many things I want to do with my life. 

The last couple days I’ve been thinking and having anxiety to me means that I need to get out of my comfort zone, don’t let this hold me back. It gives me something to get over. So I need to go ask that guy out that I’ve had my eye on, go out with friends and go to bars more. Stop overthinking  things so much, and just do them! Or I’m never gonna be able to really live my life the way I want. 

“Your mind is a powerful thing.”


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