All over the place (real mind of an INFP)

  Hey Hello 

Anyone else out here besides me?

Well yea that’s what it feels like

To be stuck in my brain 

Feeling like I’m the only one who thinks this way ;Who feels this way 

Am I different than everyone else

Do people really think that I’m as weird as I think I am?  I don’t know. I have all these constant thoughts. Always on overdrive, as usual. Got to let it all out sometimes. 

It helps with the constant frustration that I’m feeling at this moment, this lonely dark part of my life that I’m ready to get out of. [writing] I see a brighter future more and more everyday. It heals me, helps me become the person I know I can be, the person I’m supposed to be.. 

My thoughts constantly go from:

Am I going to fall in love (again I don’t know, maybe I’m not even sure what real, true love is)

Am I going to figure out what the hell I actually want to do with my life? 

Why is America not the happiest country in the world, why the hell is Switzerland? And why am I not living there? Why. Just why. Constantly going and sometimes all over the place. {infp}  

Exactly. 

My thoughts are all over the place and sometimes I just can’t control them. 

Sometimes I wish I could make them stop. 

They never will. 

But, then again why would I want them to?

I would probably be a very bored person. (I might be a very boring person but I’m never bored. There is a difference.) 

Why do things happen the way they do? You’re supposed to just wake up everyday and keep doing the same things over and over again right? Are we meant for this? 

Sometimes I get frustrated I can’t have real conversations with people because I think too deeply into things. I just want something real.  I think of the bigger pictures, always. I feel. Sometimes it makes people uncomfortable and they go in the other direction.. But I am who I am. I want to know every little detail, I like to learn about a lot of different things, I get excited about the little things in life. It took me about 25 years to actually like who I am and It’s still a process but every day those “little” things help.. I’ll never give up.. I’ll never lose hope.. 

Why does one awkward wave lead to something more? I have no idea, my mind wanders deep into so many different scenarios..

Maybe it will happen 

Maybe it won’t

Maybe it will happen this way or that way? So many different thoughts about one awkward wave.. 

Frustrating at the moment but I guess we’ll see what happens.

Is this the universe again?

Are you telling me something 

Is this the moment things are finally supposed to get better? 

It can only get better from this darkness I’ve been holding onto for so long.. 

Soon, Moonchild 🌛

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  1. Hey INFP! I love this post. I’m an INFJ but can totally relate to what you’re saying (especially that part about Switzerland!). I find myself constantly aching to get to a deeper level of understanding with people, and yet remaining on the surface. I feel like the thoughts I think, and the things I’m interested in are not the greatest “dinner time conversation” and so I keep them inside. I’ve been enjoying your blog! Looking forward to reading more 🙂

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    1. Thank you so much! I really appreciate this♥️ it makes me feel like there are people out there who know what I feel like, what I’m going through, to connect on that deeper level. I’m just glad to know I’m not alone in the way I feel. My mind is always going to some other place. It feels good to let it out here. It feels like my safe little place where I can figure out life. Thank you so much for taking the time to read♥️

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      1. It’s really hard to feel alone and like nobody understands you or is interested in the same things as you. I think this is something that idealists struggle with a lot. Considering the world is made up largely ( I believe 65 or 70 %) of sensors, I guess it makes sense. I really enjoy your blogs, and I’m glad it helps provide some relief for all your thoughts!!

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